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Title: Interlude in Faith
Author: [livejournal.com profile] dea_liberty
Pairing: None - GEN.
Rating: G
Summary: The drive to Nebraska is a long one. Faith-coda.
A/N: I've owed this to [livejournal.com profile] gray_light for a long time and finally managed to finish it just in time for her birthday! Also inspired by[livejournal.com profile] spn_nostalgia! Happy birthday, Gray! you are made of awesome and I adore you! Betaed by the wonderful [livejournal.com profile] unperfectwolf!

Sometimes, he has to struggle to hear it.



Sometimes, he has to struggle to hear it. That’s what scares him the most, he thinks—the moments that he feels as though the whole world’s stopped moving and all he can hear is his own heartbeat, his blood rushing to his ears, and not that sound he’s so desperately listening for.

And then Dean shifts in his sleep—turns over, or moves a leg, or something—and the air rushes into his lungs and he can breathe again. He can breathe if he can hear Dean’s breathing.

Sometimes, he has to struggle just to see him. Other times, he just turns over to face the wall, tries to act like everything’s normal. He tries not to see the way the bed seems smaller than before, the way Dean only takes up part of it, the way he’s frail under the flimsy motel covers. The material does nothing to hide the state Dean’s in.

He tries to ignore it, tries to pretend—but he almost always ends up turning over, straining his eyes in the darkness, trying to make out the shape of his brother across the space between them. He focuses hard and takes one breath every time Dean’s chest moves.

Half way to Nebraska, in another motel room, Sam squints a little in the light that floods through the window and illuminates the patch of bed Dean sleeps in. Under the cover, Sam fidgets with his phone, wishes Dad was here. At least then, he’d have an excuse to be closer to Dean.

Then Dean stills—his breathing hitching, Sam’s stopping with it—and coughs as he takes in air again. Sam breathes out a shaky sigh and tries not to tell himself to close his eyes. Dean coughs again.

“Sam,” Dean says, and when Sam looks up from Dean’s chest, he finds Dean’s eyes on him. The bags are more pronounced than ever, the green slightly dulled by pain and effort. Sam’s breathing stutters. “Sam,” Dean says again.

“Yeah,” Sam finally answers, voice almost-but-not-quite breaking. “What is it?”

“I’m cold.” But it’s not that cold in the motel room. The windows are all shut, and Dean’s wrapped up in far more layers than he’s used to sleeping in. Sam fights the urge to bite the pillow. Instead, he just swallows hard.

“Want me to get you another shirt?”

“No.” Dean rolls his eyes before he shifts over in the bed, presses right back against the wall.

Sam takes that for what it is. He all but scrambles off his own bed, tries not to make it too obvious that he’s been wanting—needing—this since the accident, and climbs in beside Dean. He curls in close, ignores how they really shouldn’t fit on a bed together anymore. Somehow, they’ve always managed to fit.

And somehow, instead of wrapping himself around Dean, sharing his warmth with him, Sam finds himself pulled against Dean’s chest as Dean curls protectively around him. He finds himself with his ear against Dean’s chest, listening to the thud-thud-th-thud of Dean’s heart. It’s not quite steady – but it’s there.

“Go to sleep, Sammy,” Dean says, face pressed into Sam’s hair. His breathing starts to even out, and Sam focuses on that, takes one steady breath in with each of Dean’s.

It’s not until much later that Sam realizes Dean’s wearing less layers than he went to sleep in, the spare shirt and hoody bunched up, kicked away to the bottom of the bed. By then, Sam’s too grateful to care.

Date: 2008-09-18 07:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] grayscaled.livejournal.com
Oh, honey. That's really gorgeous. Quiet and understated and sweet. Thank you so much. <3

Date: 2008-11-04 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
*snugs you close*

Date: 2008-09-18 07:47 pm (UTC)
cybel: (Dean No Rest/cybel)
From: [personal profile] cybel
Beautifully written. I love Faith so much!

Date: 2008-11-04 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! Me too.

Date: 2008-09-18 07:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maychorian.livejournal.com
Sweet and simple and lovely. I really enjoyed reading this.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much.

Date: 2008-09-18 08:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nativestar.livejournal.com
Wonderful! I could see this happening, Dean offering Sam the only reassurance he can. Nicely done.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-18 08:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] unplugged32.livejournal.com
God, that's it, just break my heart, won't you? ;)

Date: 2008-11-04 06:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
*g* Sorry?

Date: 2008-09-18 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] suejc3dogs.livejournal.com
Very nice. Short and sweet.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-18 08:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tcs1121.livejournal.com
Wonderful Season One! Thank you, dea liberty, for reminding me how much I loved "Faith." This story was just right. Nicely done.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you. And it's my pleasure; I adored Faith so much.

Date: 2008-09-18 09:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laurificus.livejournal.com
Aw, this is lovely. Dean is totally the best big brother.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2008-09-18 09:37 pm (UTC)
ext_13391: (Beautiful (sam))
From: [identity profile] smilla02.livejournal.com
Beautiful litle story. I can see how Sam would focus on Dean's beathing and how promixity would give him comfort.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-18 09:48 pm (UTC)
ext_16275: (Supernatural - Dean Faith Sick)
From: [identity profile] legoline.livejournal.com
There aren't enough Faith codas and interludes in the world and this is just beautiful ♥

Date: 2008-11-04 06:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm really glad it worked. I love that episode so much.

Date: 2008-09-18 10:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] withdiamonds.livejournal.com
This is just beautiful.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much.

Date: 2008-09-18 10:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] selinamoonfire.livejournal.com
This is lovely. I'm sniffling and 'aww'ing at the same time. It's a beautiful story.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-19 12:49 am (UTC)
fufaraw: (clutch x2)
From: [personal profile] fufaraw
Into my memories. And now off to find that box of tissues.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
*hands you a tissue*

Date: 2008-09-19 06:09 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Awww. I will NEVER get tired of bits from that episode! Honestly, outside of the season finales and premiers, it's my favorite of all.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-20 12:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emmademarais.livejournal.com
Lovely. This is one of my fave episodes to see ficced because it's the perfect opportunity for H/C and for the kind of sweet affection canon can't really give us much of.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! It's one of my favourite episodes too, and I love writing things to go with it.

Date: 2008-09-20 03:21 am (UTC)
lark_ascends: Blue and purple dragonfly, green background (Default)
From: [personal profile] lark_ascends
I can believe this. Beautiful.

Date: 2008-11-04 06:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-20 07:00 am (UTC)
onthehill: yuri plisetsky gives a thumbs down (dean eye)
From: [personal profile] onthehill
Perfect *mems*

Date: 2008-11-04 06:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thanks so much!

Date: 2008-09-20 07:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] erinrua.livejournal.com
Awww, man. I need me some shmoop just now. This was perfect. Not *too* sweet, just gentle and quiet and loving. Yes. :-)

Date: 2008-11-04 06:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! Those boys are so heartbreaking.

Date: 2008-09-20 07:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deluweil.livejournal.com
WOW... this is really good:)

Date: 2008-11-04 06:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2008-09-20 10:49 pm (UTC)
ext_16464: (1 j2smilehelmet)
From: [identity profile] dairwendan.livejournal.com
AW, I love them cuddling!

Date: 2008-11-04 06:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Cuddling is the best! Thank you.

Date: 2008-09-24 08:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] may7fic.livejournal.com
Gorgeous and so hurty for them both ::contented sigh::

Date: 2008-11-04 06:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

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