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Title: (Not) The First Time
Author: [livejournal.com profile] dea_liberty
Pairing: Sulu/Chekov (Star Trek XI)
Rating: R
Warnings: Implications of abuse in the past.
Disclaimer: Not mine! Just playing in someone else's sandbox.
A/N: First attempt at writing in the fandom in answer to a prompt for Chekov not really being a virgin at [livejournal.com profile] st_xi_kink. For that reason, this is unpolished and unbetaed. Originally written under anonymity but someone asked me to delurk and post to comms so now you're all stuck with it too. Sorry!



The first time Sulu kisses him, he holds Chekov gently, cradles his face and licks slowly into his mouth. He pulls back, presses his lips to the corner of Chekov's besotted smile and whispers, "okay?"

Chekov fists his hands in Sulu's shirt, pulls him close and crashes their lips back together, moans, "yes, yes, god yes," and kisses him hard and deep and hungry.

Sulu touches him like he's a fragile thing, like he's going to break apart if he's not handled with care, undresses him with reverent fingers and even more reverent lips, leans over him on the bed, weight braced on his arms and looks down at him. He whispers, "Pavel," soft and sweet, like it's a sacred word, like he's never said a prayer more precious.

And it's incredible, amazing, like the best fucking feeling in the world, and the Enterprise doesn't fly high at all when compared to how he feels. He reacts, arches and moans, and god, there can't be anything better than this feeling, better than the way Sulu touches him, like he's something to be loved and cherished and adored.

"I want to suck your cock," Chekov says, low and breathless, green of his irises swallowed by widening pupils. "Hikaru, please."

Sulu goes stock still. "You don't have to," he stutters out. "Pavel, you don't - I mean - I don't want you to do anything you aren't - "

Chekov flips their positions, presses down against Sulu, lips curled up into a smile. "I'm not a virgin," he says and, before that damn pride and honor can get in the way of this, Chekov slides down the length of his body and swallows his dick. Sulu clutches at his hair, groans rough with abandon - and maybe it's not the same, maybe he won't ever touch Chekov with that same softness again, but Chekov tells himself that the weight of Sulu's dick on his tongue, the taste of him flooding his senses, is more than enough to make up for it.

He's not an innocent, pretty little virgin anyway (they used to call him, "slut" and "whore" and he'd moan with the best of them), and he doesn't want to lie to Sulu like that.

That blissed out look on Sulu's face is enough to drive away the demons, and the way Sulu pets his hair, still gentle, apologetic, is more than enough for him to forget everything. "Pavel," Sulu says again, and Chekov is never going to get tired of hearing his name from Sulu's lips, goes willingly to lick the shape of those syllables from Sulu's mouth.

He squeaks with surprise when Sulu flips them back over, when he goes back to those sweet, gentle touches, fingers sliding along Chekov's skin like there's nothing different. The warmth is still there, bright and burning in Sulu's eyes - hands trailing down (down, down, down).

Sulu's lips rest on his pulse. "You're just full of surprises," he whispers, moves slowly over his skin, kisses every inch of him until he's practically writhing, hand creeping towards his dick - gasps in surprise when it's swatted away.

"What are you doing?" Chekov asks, voice going thready with want and need and panic. "Hikaru, what are you - bozhe moy." The feeling of a tongue flicking over the head of his cock is - Chekov doesn't even know how to describe it. He just twists, fingers tightening in the sheets as he whines.

Sulu stopps, fingers pressing almost-bruises into his hips. "Pavel?" He says, concern lacing those syllables now - and still it sounds sweeter than anything Chekov's ever heard. "I thought you said you've done this before?"

I am that obvious?. Chekov opens his eyes and stares back. "I have."

"Then...what...?" Sulu's obviously confused. He's obviously misunderstanding something, and Chekov has to correct him before he gets that deep hurting look in his eyes.

"You do not have to," he says breathlessly, slowly reaching out to cup Sulu's cheek with one hand, tugs him a little, tries to get him to come back up so Chekov can relax, can get himself off and it'll be okay. "It is okay. I don't - you don't - I do it for you."

Some kind of understanding creeps into Sulu's eyes - and Chekov prefers the blissed out look, the soft, sweet stare - anything but the angry and digust that's slowly filling them.

"No," he cries, clutching a little at Sulu. "Hikaru, please, it's okay. I don't - please, please, please don't be angry. I'll be good. I'll be so good. You can fuck me and I - please, please, Hikaru."

He almost doesn't notice he's been moved until he finds himself craddled in Sulu's arms, clutching at his neck, clinging on for dear life. "Please," he whispers, hiccuping a little. "Hikaru, please. Don't be angry."

"I'm not angry at you," Sulu says quietly, strokes a hand through his hair and down his back, voice low and soothing. "Shh, Pavel - Pasha - I'm not angry at you."

"But you are angry," Chekov says, sniffling a little, confusion clear.

"Yes," Sulu says, careful and controlled. "But not at you." He shifts them slowly, lays Chekov back down onto the bed, leans down and kisses him slowly. "Let me show you," he whispers, back to that tone - that tone that makes Chekov feel pure and fragile even though he's anything but. It makes him feel like something precious, something important. "Let me show you how it's supposed to be."

Chekov doesn't dare close his eyes, not even when Sulu's mouth wraps around his cock, does something incredible and amazing - and god, so, so good with his tongue, sends sparks up Chekov's spine until he feels the tingles in his toes. Warmth spreads, and he's moaning, whimpering, almost sobbing with want and need and Hikaru - right there, so close, pulling him higher and higher and higher until he goes supernova, comes so hard he whites out.

When he opens his eyes, Sulu's settled beside him, twisted on his side so he's pressed up close, watching him. He tucks a curl behind Chekov's ear, and Chekov grins at him, stupid and sated and wonderful.

There's open adoration on Sulu's face, and Chekov thinks he gets why Sulu was so angry. It's never been like this before. It's never felt so good. He's never felt so good, and he can't even remember the names they called him once. Just remembers Pavel and Pasha and Sulu's eyes when he calls his name. He feels like he's something special - he has to be for Sulu to touch him like this.

His smile gets brighter when Sulu leans down and kisses his lips, soft and slow, and the taste of himself on Sulu's tongue is intoxicating. He doesn't think he can ever live without it again.

"Pavel," Sulu whispers, bites lightly on his lower. "Don't ever tell me their names."

Chekov pulls back and meets Sulu's eyes, and then he shakes his head. "I won't," he promises. "I don't even remember them anymore." All he remembers is Sulu.

Date: 2009-08-08 11:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] faithsummers80.livejournal.com
*flails* so sweet and yay for Sulu!!

Date: 2009-08-08 03:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
\o/ Thank you!
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Date: 2009-08-08 03:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much.

Date: 2009-08-08 12:51 pm (UTC)
ext_41564: (spock - choke)
From: [identity profile] shighola.livejournal.com
Oh so sweet.
*hugs the boys*

Date: 2009-08-08 03:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

Date: 2009-08-08 12:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hollycomb.livejournal.com
wahh, I love this so much! This is the best kind of hurt/comfort, and Sulu's reverence for Chekov just breaks me. ;____;

Date: 2009-08-08 03:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
No breaking! (But yes. He ♥s his Chekov a lot a lot!)

Thank you so much.

Date: 2009-08-08 03:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ivy-warlord08.livejournal.com
So good~

Protective!Loving!Sulu is the best!

Thanks for the read!

Date: 2009-08-08 04:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you for the comment! I'm glad you liked it.

Date: 2009-08-08 04:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rivers-bend.livejournal.com
Oh, my heart! Poor Chekov, and yet, how wonderful for him to have Sulu who loves him like this.

*flails*

Date: 2009-08-09 05:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Sulu loves him like no one else before or anyone else ever! It more than makes up for it ;)

Thank you for the comment.

Date: 2009-08-08 06:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] xkiisstheraiin.livejournal.com
Poor little Chekovvvv ;_____; But I really like Sulu in this :)

Date: 2009-08-09 05:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2009-08-08 06:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dana-norram.livejournal.com
D'awwwwwwwwwww! Sulu's adoration for Chekov always make me feel warm. I loved it! <3

Date: 2009-08-09 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
He loves his Pasha supernova amounts! Thank you so much.

Date: 2009-08-08 07:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] julie-3000.livejournal.com
you get ♥♥♥♥ because I'm speechless right now.

Date: 2009-08-09 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! ♥

Date: 2009-08-08 10:49 pm (UTC)
vae: (gen: fan of sci fi)
From: [personal profile] vae
These two are kind of delicate together. Not fragile, not brittle, but everything's so...I don't know, I don't think I have words to describe it beyond delicate, but you write it without needing to describe it, because it's THERE.

Date: 2009-08-09 05:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
♥ Thank you so much, love.

Date: 2009-08-09 12:14 am (UTC)
ext_16103: (sulu chekov black and white classy)
From: [identity profile] tallycola.livejournal.com
Aww this was so sweet and perfect. I love how protective and reverent Sulu is, how much he respects Chekov. <3 <3

Date: 2009-08-09 05:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
He loves his Chekov! Thank you so much. I'm really glad you liked it.

Fancy meeting you here

Date: 2009-08-09 01:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] art-of-cynicism.livejournal.com
Ha, you wrote Star trek fic! Awesome-sauce.

That was really good too, normally I'm not a huge fan of Chekov/Sulu but I rather liked your interpretation. Poor Chekov, those bad people did mean things to you. : (

Good writing, friend!

Re: Fancy meeting you here

Date: 2009-08-09 05:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
OH HELLO YOU!

Thanks, love. I have...inexplicable love for them. And I honestly do not know why! I'm so glad you liked this.

Date: 2009-08-09 12:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] devo79.livejournal.com
Very strong writing. Sad as well.

Date: 2009-08-09 04:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2009-08-09 02:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theotherdibbler.livejournal.com
He feels like he's something special - he has to be for Sulu to touch him like this.
Such an achingly beautiful line. :)

Date: 2009-08-09 04:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed this.

Date: 2009-08-10 05:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] near-family.livejournal.com
While I was reading your awesome ficlet, I realized toward the end that I had stopped breathing.

This happens to me on occasion when I get sucked into the story and become really invested in the character's emotions and oh my God, what happens next? is really the only way to describe my state of mind.

So when I tell you that this ficlet took my breath away I'm totally not being cliche. ^^

Date: 2009-08-11 07:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
Thank you so much. That's an absolutely amazing compliment and I'm so flattered! This was the first thing of these two I'd ever written so I was really nervous about it.

Thank you ♥

Date: 2009-08-14 01:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] littlewolfstar.livejournal.com
Soo much love for Protective!Sulu!! *___* And poor sweet Pavel who wants nothing more than to make him happy *________*

I still think Sulu would secretly track down the offenders and super!katana their asses if he weren't y'know... in space. XD

Date: 2009-08-14 06:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dea-liberty.livejournal.com
♥ Thank you!

(He would, yes. And when he finds out who it was, he does! Of course he does.)

Date: 2009-09-20 02:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] januaryfreeze92.livejournal.com
Great job. The last line made it. :)

Date: 2009-09-22 05:20 am (UTC)

Date: 2009-12-13 05:29 am (UTC)
tigriswolf: (meg)
From: [personal profile] tigriswolf
Wonderful!

Date: 2009-12-13 02:08 pm (UTC)

Date: 2010-03-01 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ivorysilk.livejournal.com
Wow. This was lovely.

Date: 2013-09-18 09:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] indraairavata.livejournal.com
I know this is a pretty old fic I'm commenting on, but I just wanted to say that this is just about my favorite chekov/sulu fic ever. I wish there were more, but at the same time it is so perfect in it's length and depth. So sweet and cute! ^.^

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